Amazons International # 28 ************************** Contents: HellQat: Bio Mark: Bio & a few thoughts Mike R.: Kara Date of Transmission: 16.04.93 ************************************************************** Date: Mon, 12 Apr 93 00:14 PDT From: hellcat@wetware.com (HellQat) Subject: Bio To get an idea of what shaped my self-image as an "Amazon", one must look back into my past. I am a complex person, and this bio touches only the tip of the iceberg, so be warned that this is a bit lengthy. Born in Denver, Colorado in March 1961, I was the youngest of four children. The next youngest, my brother, was 7 years my senior. Most of my early years were spent in combat with him, usually verbal, sometimes physical. He was an incessant tease, and when I was very young, I was no match for him, not having his intellectual and physical experience. I envied his power and struggled for equal footing with him. As I got older, the battleground became more even and I found myself spitting his venom back at him and often besting him. At this point, I ceased to be his annoying "baby sister" and commanded more respect in his eyes. Don't get me wrong, we loved each other as normal but combative siblings do during all this -- our battles were never fought below the belt, even if he did take advantage of his superior years at first. Later on I found that I really missed those skirmishes we had! Those were the early years of my training. I associated males with power, and was a consummate tomboy and often solitary thinker. I sought the secrets of the sea in meditation upon a dewdrop, and have a deep love for art and science as well as solitude to this day. Later, when the hormones began to carbonate, I began to realize my power as a woman, and also to become cognizant of the gender roles society has placed on both men and women. I rejected them. I did my best to ignore them, being both idealistic and rebellious. You know what? I haven't regretted it one iota. I have always felt as Solan (and Aristotle) does: A is A. I am an individualist from the very core of my unique being. Anyone who tries to take that away from me is in for one hell of a fight -- and they'll lose, because I am who I am and nothing can change that. I look at others in this same light, and, like Solan, do not judge them on the basis of some group belonging or cultural stereotype. I accept them for who they are. To me, the essence of my Amazonness is the strength of my spirit, my intellect, and the oneness of all that is me with all that is, yet still recognizing the uniqueness that is me. It's a very Zen concept, but one I believe in. There is a certain attitude and sense of being in touch with the agressive yang side of one's being but not forgetting the yin, more subtle but equally as powerful, that I also associate with being an Amazon. Altho I am a professional in a technical field (UNIX systems software analyst at NASA), I am an artist, musician and writer thru and thru. Art creeps into my work whenever it can -- my muses are very adept at that, altho sometimes they are frustrated by the mechanical practicality of it all. As far as physical characteristics, I am not the classic Amazon. I am blonde with blue-grey eyes, Norsk fair, 5'6" tall and since I swam competitively for 15 years of my young life, grew a distinctively athletic build. Growing up in Colorado, I learned to ski at the age of 9. I have a great love of the outdoors and active pursuits. Fashion? I live in jeans and leather most of the time, but occasionally like to dress agressively sexy and make heads turn (and make my Lifemate's eyes glow with pride and smolder with desire ;-). Makeup? Most of the time I don't wear any, but for special occasions and if I feel like it, I will wear it, but never heavily, unless I'm going to a costume party. Currently, I bicycle (usually with my 6'3" Lifemate) and work out on weights at the local Nautilus club 2-3 times a week. I have a physique that is very responsive to bodybuilding, but I also have a distinct disadvantage that I have been learning to deal with for the past 4 years: Rheumatoid Arthritis, a nasty, inflammatory, autoimmune form of arthritis which can cripple. Happily, I am in relatively pain-free remission now and can get back to some of the things I could not do when the arthritis was more active. I have also participated in martial arts (Tai Chi, Chi Kung, Aikido, would like to learn some Kung Fu, especially weapons technique). I have also been active in paintball, and played in several paintball tournaments, one of which was on the national level with an all-female team (the same team Stormwind mentioned in one of the early AI issues). I have enjoyed perusing the articles in this mailing list and am very happy and pleased to see everyone being so honest and open -- this is GREAT! Keep up the good work everyone. HellQat ************************************************************** Date: Tue, 13 Apr 93 12:40:14 CDT From: markn@comm.mot.com (Mark Nowak) Subject: Bio and a Few Thoughts Greetings from Chicago! I just joined the list and have skimmed most of the old issues. My name is Mark Nowak, and I too am impressed with strong-willed, intelligent, assertive women who genuinely like themselves for who they are. I guess that would be my definition of Amazons. I took a few years of Latin back in high school and a class in mythology in college. Somewhere I was taught that according to myth, Amazon women were such fierce warriors that they cut off their left breasts to make themselves more proficient archers. I believe they also killed any male offspring. Ah, the stuff of legends. I'm 26, have a medium build, athletic in that I'm into running and bicycling, a software engineer. I think it was Fiona Webster who wrote that there seemed to be too much of a fixation on the physical aspects of Amazons and not enough of the spiritual, emotional and intellectual. I believe that a petite women can be an Amazon at heart if she believes in herself and acts assertively. I hope I don't generate any flack over this, but I think that some women who compete with men are not secure with being women and are trying to prove that they can be one of the guys -- because being one of the women isn't good enough for them. An Amazon to me is a woman at peace with herself, and doesn't let anyone impose limitations on what she can do, but at the same time is secure enough not to have to prove others wrong. I guess my definition of Amazons can then apply to men as well. I tend to like women who are comfortable with themselves, who don't wear a lot of makeup, who wear comfortable shoes, who don't change for the world and make the world accept them as they are. Someone mentioned Boris Vallejo Amazon pictures. I have some 30 or 40 of them off of the net in gif or jpeg format. If the demand isn't too great, I'm willing to email them or place them in some anonymous ftp site. Let me know. [Jamie Gairns at gairns@ccrs.emr.ca started an Amazon image archive / FTP site some time ago (see A.I. # 16). How is it going, Jamie? -- Ed.] Mark Nowak markn@comm.mot.com ************************************************************** Date: 11 Apr 1993 14:32:37 -0400 (EDT) From: Mike R. Subject: Kara I sent in my bio a while ago [see # 12 -- Ed.], in which I described the amazing experience I'd had with a fellow bodybuilder as a lover some time ago. Well, I never thought I would, but since then, I've met another woman who I ended up training for competition. Actually, if you read the bodybuilding rags, you probably know who she is, -- she's awesome (and she knows it) but most important, she's extremely sensual. We've become lovers, and I'm once again really happy -- one of the things which drew us to each other is not only physical attraction -- though there is plenty of that, but the fact that we both find bodybuilding -- working out, competing, posing -- to be incredibly sexy. She (let's call her "Kara") actually moonlights as a freelance writer of what you might call "Amazon" fantasy -- she's done scripts for a few phone "talk" lines, etc. etc. If the WABBA found out she's doing this she could be suspended, but she loves (as you will find out) the feeling of being "exposed yet untouchable" (by anyone except me), and she asked me to relay this to your readers. She would love to have any reactions, comments, continuation of her "adventures" (she's a little jealous that *some* people have their adventures continued...) Mike R. "Kara" writes: "Of all the parts of bodybuilding, I guess I hate dieting the most (though I get really cut up pretty quickly). I love pushing *massive* weights -- I love being huge. I must admit that I've cycled steroids in my time, though not right now -- I have all the size I need, and if anyone wonders why a woman would do this, the answer is -- the reason anyone would do any drug, no matter how destructive -- the feeling of being 160 lbs, huge and ripped and sexy and powerful is *awesome*. I had very few masculinizing side effects -- I had a very soft, feminine body (34D-25-37) before I started bodybuilding, so I think that saved me, though my clit did enlarge, and is still pretty big -- I'm blushing, but I wouldn't say I regret it at all :-) , and I love the feeling of hugeness, of blowing people away, and most of all, of feeling equally powerful and muscular as my lover when I make love to him. What I love most about bodybuilding is showing off my body when it's context ready -- posing -- in competition, in private. Before I pose in competition, it's usually Mike, who's my training partner, who oils me up and down... He never misses an inch of me. He is very, very picky -- quite a perfectionist, both about posing and about working out. We push each other through intense and long workouts. Without him I'd be lost. He's one of the only bodybuilders I know who can spot me with the weights I attempt to lift. We motivate each other and we work very hard together. He's always putting more and more weight on the bar for me to lift. Sometimes I feel I won't make it through the workout, but somehow I always do. I'm tremendously strong, and have great stamina -- that's the key to my quick muscle development. Well, I'm gifted with fantastic genetics also. I love to feel as if I'm lifting so heavy it's almost beyond human potential. I usually end up entering a couple of contests in succession, because that tends to be the way they fall out. I've taken first in the heavies in a few contests, but I'm generally accounted too big and too hard ("freaky") to win the overall. I hope this doesn't blow my cover. :-) Even when I'm not preparing for a contest, I usually look at my at myself in the mirror when I'm finished working out and when I'm totally pumped. Usually, I pose in the locker room mirror, so I can strip down totally, but if I'm feeling really buff, I'll strip off my sweats, down to my spaghetti-string lycra tank and bike shorts, and pose right there in the free weight area and blow everyone away! I flex every muscle that I worked that day, and I swear that I grow bigger during each workout. When I pose, people tend to freak out -- I always get a crowd and I love it. There are always a few dykes who are in love with me, but we get along, a few wimpy guys who want to touch me, but I blow them off. I'm basically turned on only by extremely muscular guys, which means MIKE right now, but I really get off on all the attention, no matter who it comes from. I guess I just like to be worshipped. I've worked hard on this body, and I love to feel appreciated. For different contests, I pick specific muscle groups I've been working on harder than ever before, and I emphasize those muscles a lot during my routine. By the time I'm finished posing, every part of my body is quivering from holding each pose steady while I flex each muscle to the max, all my muscles are flushed with blood, and I feel really awesome. Mike and I usually go right home and make love after our workouts together. It's about all I can do to keep my hands off him in the gym!. I always have Mike oil me up before a competition. He just loves to rub oil all over my huge ripped body, and I return the favor when he competes -- only men don't have to wear tops, so I get to tweak his nipples a little and watch his posing suit stretch as a result. He usually starts with my back. I love the feeling of the warm oil spreading on my lats. When I do a quarter turn to the side in a lineup, you usually can't see the woman behind me, my lats are so wide. I'm really proud of them. He then rubs the excess oil down to my tight hard glutes -- Bob Kennedy of MuscleMag once remarked that ripped glutes are rare on a woman, but when I am in the best shape -- watch out! My legs are gigantic, and my calves are huge. I was once accused of having implants, and while I have done steroids -- I would *never* do implants. My calves just naturally respond to excercises. I can do donkey raises with Mike (230 lbs) on my back. Next, he oils my pecs -- one of my best bodyparts, tight, and massive, with a great "zipper". I love the feeling of his hands on my upper pecs -- my nipples are usually going crazy by this point, and I like that he is sorely tempted to touch them but he can't -- he'll get to later.... My shoulders are pretty amazing (I don't want to sound arrogant, but I am proud!) My biceps and abs are really my absolute best features though -- my biceps meaure 15 3/4". I love to pull a double biceps when people don't expect it. It bowls 'em over. My little nieces are always wanting me to make a muscle for them -- Mike's arms are around 18" but proportionally, on my frame, my biceps look as big as his, if you can believe it! I am genetically gifted with defined abs -- even when I have a layer of fat over 'em you can see them. For competition, I get them really deeply cut -- Mike always kids me that when I'm ripped, you could lose a quarter in them. Being long-limbed helps! I usually get really turned on, even when I'm scared shitless before a contest, when Mike oils up my legs. I love to flex my quads for him while he's doing me. I think he likes my legs best of all -- I have very well-defined hams, and my quads have clear separations, and in my last couple of contests, cross-striations. (Yay!) I do incredibly high weights on leg presses and squats sometimes, though I usually use relatively low weights because I have such a strong base my legs tend to take over. After Mike has gotten every part of me, I take some relatively light weights (35 lb. dumbells, a bar with 50 lbs.) and I pump up before my turn on stage. Mike watches and critiques. I have to squeeze every muscle so tight and do lots of reps. I want to bulge from head to toe. My adrenalin is flowing now -- I don't want to stop pumping. I just wanna be pumping out one rep after another. Some other girls pump up in sweats before they oil up, I do it in my posing suit, which is pretty tiny. I look so huge, and I love it -- even if it loses points with the judges, it turns the audience on, and I know that indtimidates my opponents. I love to control them and control the audience. Now, I feel really naked up on stage, which is a little wierd, but I have to confess, it totally turns me on to be up there posing in front of a screaming audience. Mike and I have sometimes done the men's and women's divisions in the same show, (though we've never done mixed pairs). Let me tell you, we get totally high on the audience response, and the lovemaking after is fantastic. But I'm making it easy for you -- you're supposed to be fans of female power -- it's your turn. Let's say you were in the audience and I was posing -- tell me: what would you be seeing, what would you be thinking, what would you be feeling? What do you think *I'm* thinking and feeling (besides wanting some ice cream like crazy? :-)) Get into my head -- get into your own heads. This is real life, people, not an "Amazon fantasy!" :-) Up on stage, all I hear is screaming -- I feel like the whole audience wants me, but I can't tell if I freak then out or if they love me (it's usually both --). ---So tell me, fans! -- I'm waiting, "Kara" ********************************************************** * Amazons International * * Thomas Gramstad, editor: thomas@smaug.uio.no * * Administravia: amazons-request@math.uio.no * * Submissions: amazons@math.uio.no * ********************************************************** "A Hard Woman is Good to Find" -- The Valkyries